The Daily Payne

The tenuous strands of trust…

I think I finally figured out who has been telling the ex about my personal feelings about her, with his own twist on things. So its little wonder why she has been so upset with me over the last two years because this asshole who I allowed in my close circle has been feeding her a bunch of bullshit! I found this out while out on a lunch date with supposed friend and he casually mentions that he had contacted her to praise her for such a good job in putting me in my place on that one fated conversation I posted to “that group”.

I explained to him that what she did was wrong, the intent was right but not-so-subtly implying that her and I were involved in a relationship and using that excuse to justify her response was very wrong on so many levels.

I’m so frustrated by this because of how this all affects my ability to trust people and trust my friends closest to me.

Maybe I’m just sick and tired of this supposed “community” we have, maybe I’m sick and tired of worrying about what my “friends” true intentions are when sharing with them my true feelings about what is going on in my life.

Maybe I just need to choose better friends. Maybe this supposed “friend” needs to stop ass-kissing every “popular” person on fet, stop spreading dissention and start being a better friend.

Fucking so sick…

of answering the phone today. Just call after call of endless, mundane questions with no breaks of silence. The second I disconnect from one caller another is in que with another question to be answered. Totally wish I was doing something else a lot more fun rather than hiding out in the bathroom to vent.